Fell into a hole today
something I dug in my own brain.
I could write it off and tell myself I'm wrong.
But, I know these aren't for everyone.
I could almost smile to everyone but the sun beat down and I fell for so long.
Come and hold me while I drown,
the only time you're above ground.
I know I said I'm lonely and bored,
but now I know it's so much more.
I wonder where you are from and where your father was when you got drunk and where I'm going with you now and what we'll do.
It can only be a certain place,
a part of you you thought erased.
I've tried myself a hundred times, too.
Come and hold me while I grow inside,
outside is ruined.
Snow falls on the street and every breath is slow.
I love to watch you laugh when you're alone.
I hold myself during these times.
I'm tired on loss and high on wine.
You're so far away but I am right here.
I keep it with me everywhere, this helplessness thing.
I've almost cared myself to shreds and been lost forever there.
We never find who we're taught to serve
and it's a shame that we all eat birds.
I miss you now, but I don't eat my words.
But I'd eat anything of hers.